Paris–Day 1

A sleepless night, an early flight.. 3 youngsters go to Paris.. LeCan, Sarpero and I..

After a flight filled with dancing (sleeping for LeCan) we landed in Paris.. got to our hotel and then threw ourselves onto the streets of Paris..

After walking for an hour around our hotel, we took the metro to Concorde.. walked a little over to Champs-Elysees then went into one of my favorite places: L’avenue..

A little bit of our yesterday:

paris vs. newyork

I have a business trip planed at the end of this month to Paris..quite excited for it to be honest.. I am a little heartbroken too, Paris was our next stop with “my baby” and I feel like I am betraying him by going without him..

I did a post about Paris vs. NewYork before.. and have posted some of the same images too.. However with recent developments, with booking my ticket and hotel, I feel like I need to share these with you again..

I do miss NY a lot.. I miss the rush the city has 24/7.. but I am also looking forward to sitting at a café and watching others while sipping my wine or coffee..

motivation

I went to a 2 day training with fellow colleagues.. it was plain amazing.. before going no matter how much I tried not to be, I was still cynical about it. Not knowing what to expect got thousands of questions in my mind..

yet.. believe me, those 2 days- as I said- were amazing.. I learned so much new stuff about myself, and about others.. I learned of new ways to know people – a certain way that you usually don’t think much about..

One of the highlights of the event was about “getting out of your comfort zone” and getting into what we call the “growth and learning zone”.. trying to move ahead and not stay in the same place more than a while..

another highlight was about Energy and Attitude.. Positive and Negative Attitude, High and Low Energy.. which of the 2 classifications would you see yourself in?

do you have a positive attitude and a high energy? or you do have a negative attitude and a high energy? or you are negative and have low energy? etc etc.. you get my drift right?

So about this whole attitude and energy thing – I tried to find a place for myself.. and got to question myself even further.. I do have high energy and positive attitude most of the time.. but as life goes, one is never always that happy (not sure if happy is the right word but still).. there are days when I do not have the energy to move a finger yet I have this amazingly pink view of the world. But when I asked others, they said I usually am this positive attitude and high energy person, with a smile on her face no matter what.. which made my day.. I appreciated the fact that other people see me as such.. what a relief!

If you do have the chance to attend such seminars, events, motivational activities about teambuilding, or knowing yourself.. do attend them! keep an open mind about what might you hear, and what might be coming your way.. because what is being delivered to you is not something you are not aware of, but something that is useful to hear from someone else to settle in your mind…

I hope you have an amazing Thursday as I plan mine to be one.. as much as any other day..

May happiness be with you..

back in business!

Back from resting for 20 days... I am back in business! I am back in the office, back at work.. reading and deleting and replying to emails all day.. figuring out what it was that I do at work and what functionality I have..
It feels good to be back..!


we had an amazing weekend.. spending time with friends does boost ones morale and happiness levels.. I did learn to appreciate friends more while I was in the hospital.. everyone needs a support group, a circle of friends that they can rely on.. and you know what, it doesn't matter if you know people for 20 years or just for a few months, because people can surprise you.. those you have known the longest may not even be there for you, but those you have just known for a few months may not even leave your bedside and try to be there with you through it all... so, please do tell those friends you have how much you love and appreciate them.. because I learned it the hard way!

lit d'hôpital deux

The last 3 days have definitely not been my best, or my families.. the stress levels have taken their course, and have made us feel more tired then we were with our daily lives.. However, 3 days ago I made a decision! I decided that, during these 10 days that I am stuck in these 4 walls, I will be as positive as I can be, smile as much as I can, make people laugh, and embrace those that are around me. 


I feel so lucky. This might sound weird, coming from where I am right now, in a hospital bed, watching my tired mom sleep - because she wakes up before I do, gets ready for the busy day, and never leaves my side, to help me with everything.. - anyways.. I feel lucky because I have a family that is supportive of me and thinks of me, loves me, cherishes me, understands me.. that does not bore me with hospital jungle stuff and lets me be who I am.. my parents, my immediate family, aunt, cousin, grandma, and others.. everyone that has held my hand and has helped me and my parents! I am thankful for your prayers and your help.. 


I am so lucky to have "my baby"!!! I can not thank him enough! words are limited, my feelings aren't.. he has been with me and my family since the start. Has not left my side for a second - we push him away from the room so that he would go home and sleep.. but he comes back the first thing in the morning.. I am so lucky to have him on my side, holding my hand when I need him, and him making me laugh no matter what.. he is my strength! I am even more thankful to his parents, who have let him stay with me all day, everyday.. who have supported me and my parents in ways that I am not sure how to explain.. but I know one thing, today when I saw "my baby"s parents, I got this mixed feelings of joy, hope, and a little bit of cluster.. not sure what that cluster was, but I think it was their inner thought and feelings about seeing me in a hospital bed - which does not sadden me but makes me happy knowing they care about me.. 


I cannot thank my friends enough, they have not left me alone, those who call and those who visit.. I realized how much people I have in my life that are important to me.. seeing their faces, when I least expect it, them looking over me and trying to sympathize with me actually makes me feel I am really, incredibly lucky.. thank you to each and every single one of you!


3 days are almost over, now we are moving on to the next 7 - is that countdown correct, I am not sure? 
but days go on and soon we will be out of here.. And I will remember these 10 days as a time off , with the gratitude deep in my bones for those around me!

office party

Yesterday we had an office party on our terrace... Even though we - "my baby" and I- didn't stay for long, we did have fun.. and as I heard later this morning, apparently right after we left, the party got so much more fun.. so, believe me when I say, we all are looking forward to the next party - oh, yes we are!

almost 5

It is almost 5 am in Istanbul and I just had the chance to get into my bed.. my flight landed something past 3, and coming home, taking a shower took so long.. that I am writing now, on here, because I feel like I might pass out any minute now..

Lisbon was quite the fun! As I told you before I went for business purposes and stayed a couple days. I met some incredible people! such a fun crowd, that welcomed me.. I was first a little anxious because I knew no one, however things turned out to be great and I believe I made friends rather than colleagues.

I want to share photos with you but you are going to have to wait.. I am too tired to get my camera and upload anything!

so, take care!! xoxo

been working / calismak

I haven't been blogging for almost a week now, since I started my new job.. I am not overworked or anything, that part of my life hasn't started yet.. however it is the waking up early and going to work part that has been keeping me away. I feel like a new person now that I have this responsibility however I also feel somewhat less, because I left a big part of my life back in the States. There are other things also that are in my mind but they are dark thoughts about life and death ( my grandpa is sick and things don't look so well), I do not want to be pessimistic and steal the joy out of your day..

I will try to keep you updated and post what I have been savig for a week now.. So there might be a few posts this weekend waiting for all of you.. Hope I do not bore you!
have a great weekend! yeay, TGIF!

1 haftami tamamliyorum is yerimde fakat dikkatimi cekti ki 1 haftadir hicbirsey yazamamisim bloguma.. oysa ki durmadan bilgi toplama resim toplama modundaydim.. sanirim erkenden uyanip erkenden uyumak etkiledi beni.. yeni isimle beraber kendimi yeni bir insan gibi hissediyorum, evet calisan bir insanim ama hala sanki derse gitmem gerekiyor gibi geliyor.. birde insan kalbibi DC'de birakinca boyle oluyor sanirsam..

Bu haftasonu bolbol topladiklarimi post etmeyi planliyorum.. bombardman baslasin.. aman sikilmayin.. benim icim biraz sikkin.. dedemin hastaligi hepimizi etkiledi.. ama bunu daha fazla irdeleyip sizinde gelen haftasonunuzu bozmayacagim. simdiden iyi haftasonlari!

new job / calisma zamani

Tomorrow will be my first day at my new job, my first real job actually.. now I am a young women entering the work force.. worried a little, a little scared too.. but yet very excited.. I hope I will do my job well.. and prove to others and myself that I can do this! wish me luck!

Yarin benim icin cok onemli bir gun.. yepyeni hayatimin baslangici da diyebiliriz.. Yarin yeni isime baslama gunum.. Inanilmaz heycanliyim ama ayni zamanda icimde kucuk pitircik korkular da var.. sans dileyin bana, ihtiyacim olcak sanirsam ki.. 

memorize me

we all need some USB drives.. 

either for work, for school or for personal issues.. 

I know I have many somewhere in my apartment, hiding in the drawers.. 

I was never good at keeping them organized or even close to me..

so I found these 2 USB's that I believe are incredibly gorgeous, fun and useful

Memoring

LaCie

a USB that looks like a house key? 

who would have thought.. 

now we won't lose our memories.. 

personally my favorite is the Memoring.. 

i love the way it looks and the colors.. 

which one do you like? 

little girl is big girl

2 minutes ago, my mom called me downstairs..

even though she knows I don't have the energy to walk downstairs (I stayed home all day today because I got the cold)

but when I came down I saw what was waiting for me.. 

my mom and dad, standing next to the table, in the middle of the living room.. 

she had a small plate in her hand.. 

and she was singing this uncoordinated song that she made up, in place of a happy birthday song.. 

little girl is big girl, little girl is big girl

she went on until I got the candle to stop burning.. (magic candle- mom laughed so hard)

she liked the idea that I got plenty of wishes.. 

If you are asking what this chocolate macaroon and the candle is for? 

I got a job!

Remember the meeting I told you about before? 

Well, I got the call today confirming that I am good to go.. 

I guess mom is right? little girl is big girl.. 

I never realized I grew up until these past weeks..

I had my BIG interview/meeting yesterday that I told you so little about... as you might know - I recently graduated from college and am looking for a job..
My plans has always been to stay in the States, close to "my baby", and trying to make a career..
but I got this phone call a couple of weeks ago that changed my plans..

I went in around 2:30 and got out close to 5:00pm...

I met 4 wonderful people; whom I will be working with, if I get the job.. I really liked them and I hope they feel the same way with me..

Interviews are really stressful, especially if you are just out of college and have little experience with it..
I never know how to sit, what to say and not to say... I find it easier to be myself and open up..
{I might have opened up too much-maybe}


however.. in conclusion... I am more than excited...

not many of my friends in DC know the consequences of me getting this job.. they don't know that I plan to move back to Turkey; and I doubt that they read this blog.. but once I tell them- I hope they will be happy for me.. it is really hard for me to think about leaving all of them behind.. let alone I have to do it..

in my interview a gentleman asked me why my blog was the bestest blog ever? 

the answer I believe is because it is mine.. 

I try to think of it as a best because I write genuinely and I hope you feel that way too.. 

it might not be the bestest blog for you - but for me - it is!

P.S- I wish I was here: right now!

new year resolutions..

as hours left to starting a new year.. 2011.. I have to make some new year resolutions like everyone else..

I am going thru some changes in my life..

some possible space and time differences are going to be in my life..

(a change of city, continent to even make it more obvious to you)

I might not be in the states after February and may move back to Istanbul due to my recent graduation and the need of work..

so my new years resolutions are guided by my mixed feelings and confused mind.. so please bare with me.. 

1. Happiness

I want the happiness I felt all year and more if possible around me and my loved ones..

I want to be able to smile everyday, laugh and enjoy life..

and never forget that:

2.Love

I want to continue to be in love, stay in love and have ''my baby'' be in love with me too..

I wish to see more couples around, more love in the air..

I want to make myself and him happy..

3. Weight/Health

My recent gain weght is causing me problems.. I do not feel healthy.. I just feel heavy..

I want to loose all the weight that I have gained.. and be more fit and healthy than ever..

4. Success

either with my possible new job or somethişng else, I want to be successful.. I want to make myself proud.. I want to make my parents proud..
I believe this is going to be my life with an extra ''my baby'' thoughts in it..

5.Seeking Happiness

I want to inspired and continue to be inspired of my fellow bloggers..

I wish I could reach more followers and have more comments on this blog..

I wish to find my own voice and never be afraid to use it!

6.Flowers

I want to have flowers in my room everyday.. I want to smell the freshness, the life out of them..

I want to feel like butterflies

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERY ONE!

I HOPE WE ALL HAVE A MORE PEACEFUL YEAR, FILLED WITH LOVE, JOY AND LAUGHTER..

life update/killing me inside

mom "bbm"ed me today saying I haven't been writing here for the last few days..

which got me to realize that even though i get to the post-ing page, i never write.. 

well why?

i have so much things to do

right now 

I am writing a paper on mental retardation and death penalty.. 

i have to choose a side, and defend it.. with research on the issue, with IQ test standardization etc etc.. 

just not so fun people, believe me.. 

I had my ever last day of classes (hopefully)

attended my last class/course ever.. 

never expected for the time to come.. but it has already passed.. 

and i have finals, all over the place.. 

so it is normal that i can't post, and won't post something everyday.. 

because i just don't feel like i am even living everyday... 

that is the truth.. 

and i have to get back to my dear and lovely and so much "killing me inside" paper

isn't it cool..

i found it while procrastinating :) 

work life

this morning I started my internship.. 

I am more than excited to be working.. 

today was a usual first day.. getting to know people..

getting to know my desk.. 

so, I am more than inspired.. 

more than excited.. 

hopefully this will be an opportunity for me.. 

{i really want to try these} 

{true, but life ain't that easy.. 

not yet}

{hopefully this will not be me,

between work and school work}