travel time

I think I need to get away.. go away for a while.. have great company with me.. to just relax and have fun..

no more Paris

the only post I could write about Paris was Paris Day 1, no more to come.. as Paris is over.. I am on my way back home.. waiting at the airport for my flight.. (this post was meant for Sunday, March 4th)
Paris was life changing in a sense.. I am going through a change that I am not sure how to explain, put into words or even feel..

I guess you never know what's going to happen in a second later than now..

A friend asked me yesterday if I thought I was a good person or not? at first I said, I hope I was. He said he didn't ask me whether I hoped or not but what I thought about myself.. For a second (minute) I couldn't reply.. I thought about all the people I have hurt, in the past, in near past.. all the people who I might have offended in some way or another, disappointed..

I still do not have an answer to this.. I think it's not important what I think of myself but is important what others would say..
I wonder what my friends would say... what those in my past would say.. I do wonder..

Paris–Day 1

A sleepless night, an early flight.. 3 youngsters go to Paris.. LeCan, Sarpero and I..

After a flight filled with dancing (sleeping for LeCan) we landed in Paris.. got to our hotel and then threw ourselves onto the streets of Paris..

After walking for an hour around our hotel, we took the metro to Concorde.. walked a little over to Champs-Elysees then went into one of my favorite places: L’avenue..

A little bit of our yesterday:

paris vs. newyork

I have a business trip planed at the end of this month to Paris..quite excited for it to be honest.. I am a little heartbroken too, Paris was our next stop with “my baby” and I feel like I am betraying him by going without him..

I did a post about Paris vs. NewYork before.. and have posted some of the same images too.. However with recent developments, with booking my ticket and hotel, I feel like I need to share these with you again..

I do miss NY a lot.. I miss the rush the city has 24/7.. but I am also looking forward to sitting at a café and watching others while sipping my wine or coffee..

realization

I realized that I haven’t been involved in this blog as much as I used to, or wanted to.. I had let go for a while.. and felt the emptiness in me get bigger as days go by.. and now I just found a correlation between the emptiness and this blog.. as I move away from it, the emptiness gets bigger and bigger.. as I write more, I feel more fulfilled and joyful..

so what did we learn from this? that I have to write more and share more..

I do have to apologize, from you and from “seeking happiness” itself.. sorry I have been away.. and kept to myself – instead of sharing my life; whatever it may be..

from now on- things are going to change.. and I am hoping to be more involved and active in my “seeking happiness” journey!

what has happened in my life since I have been away – not much to be honest.. I guess that’s why I kept to myself and held myself from the happiness that I could have shared with you.. I don’t have much in my life that moves the butterflies in my stomach, nor anything that gives me a days worth of smiles and joy..

the only thing that I am looking forward to is my trip to the US, to Washington,DC – my hometown, to “my baby”..

and one more thing – to a possible new job that is on the horizon.. more details may come later.. maybe soon..

I am back!!!

After spending 11 days in Washington DC, with "my baby", friends and family, I must say, I am more than happy..
I had an amazing time! Graduation was incredible.. one of my best friends graduated too, so it got even better... and all of our friends - most of them- stayed to celebrate with us.. It just was incredible..

so get ready.. the next few posts are going to be about DC and graduation..

How have you been since I was away?

By the way - I thought about my blog all the time, however it just was never the right time to write something.. I just did not have the time!

Sneak Peak:

you've gotta wait for the rest.. will be here soon :)

all my bags are packed, I'm ready to go

I have been singing this song constantly today, due to the fact that I am leaving tomorrow morning.. for DC.. I am more then excited.. I just packed.. I still am not done.. I am sitting in a pile of socks and make-up and tech gadgets.. So once you realize the 3 piles I told you are completely irrelevant to one another, you might understand why it is taking me so long to finish.. 

Cause I'm leaving on a jet plane..

What have I packed? Everything!!!!

I do not care.. A girl graduates only once..

and I am going to see my friends, and of course "my baby".. 

So I just can't decide what I am going to be wearing the next 10 days.. 

so I got everything.. 

Thinking the weather would be nice (hopefully - for a change after the rain in Istanbul), I packed lots of dresses.. all flowery summer dresses, tiny, mini dresses, and short, and t-shirts.. and no coats! 

I do not want to wear a coat on May - I am protesting Global Warming in some way!

Ladies and Gentelman.. 

due to the fact that I will be in DC and with friends and "my baby", 

I might not be, and I believe that I will not be the best blogger for a while.. 

I will try to do my best.. but please do not hold your breath until I come back.. 

Until next time.. take care.. 

and if you are in DC let me know.. 

missing those in DC

i miss you all!!

almost 5

It is almost 5 am in Istanbul and I just had the chance to get into my bed.. my flight landed something past 3, and coming home, taking a shower took so long.. that I am writing now, on here, because I feel like I might pass out any minute now..

Lisbon was quite the fun! As I told you before I went for business purposes and stayed a couple days. I met some incredible people! such a fun crowd, that welcomed me.. I was first a little anxious because I knew no one, however things turned out to be great and I believe I made friends rather than colleagues.

I want to share photos with you but you are going to have to wait.. I am too tired to get my camera and upload anything!

so, take care!! xoxo

update on happenings / life

I am in Lisbon, Portugal right now. I came here today for a whole week (until Thursday) business trip. My first business trip ever, guess how excited I am.. so excited.. I don't even have words to describe what I am feeling right now! Joy, anxious, excitement, worry all together with plenty more feelings that I do not know how to tell.. Today I came here around11:30 Lisbon time.. I haven't slept all night because I left my home (Istanbul) at 2:30am to make it here.. I am tired. But that did not stop me from settling in my hotel, and then rushing outside to shop and wonder around..

From what I have see I really like Lisbon. I have not seen much, however as I said from what I have seen it is quite cute and fun.. Amazing shopping opportunities also..

Even though I have been here for a few hours, I have spent plenty already.. what do you expect.. ofcourse I have..

here are some photos I took today..

I have been looking for a graduation dress, a black dress to wear under my cape and gown.. Found the most amazing MIU MIU dress.. ! and couldn't stop myself from buying it..

and now I am in my hotel room trying to relax.. because the next few days are going to be filled by a hectic schedule.. meeting after meeting.. from morning to night..

another last night affair

yet another Last Night in Istanbul, yet another Last Night to spend with parents for a while.. 

yet another Last Night affair.. 

however, things are different now..

I am not packing like crazy, putting everything I will miss in my luggage.. 

Instead I am putting small luggages into bigger ones, using space and just taking 2 skinny jeans and maybe a sweater.. yes, that is it!

how come? 

I believe more of you know that I am moving back to Istanbul than any of my friends' do. 

none of them do except for Ali and a couple of girl friends and ofcourse "my baby" and our friends.. 

but from DC: none!

I feel really weird.. I feel not as myself today.. because I don't have that feeling I usually have when I go to the states.. 

I am not anxious.. I am not rushing from one room to another.. I am just plain.. 

Plain doing nothing.. and writing a post.. 

I look at my saying goodbye post from last August.. a post about yet another last night in Istanbul.. 

things are different.. I believe you can feel the difference even in my words.. 

let's live in a caravan

these images inspired me..

for those who are packed and ready to live.. 

let's go!

VA- part 1

I told you I was going to go to UVA with "my baby" and friends..
so, I only have a few photos to share, just yet.. 

the others are not done, yet.. 

I am waiting for them.. 

but here's what I have so far: