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istanbul

A recent stroll around Istanbul.. just to take photos, just to enjoy Istanbul..

here are some of what I have captured..

wine bottles

I want wine bottles.. anywhere and everywhere..

I like to drink wine, I love the smell, the color, the taste.. the elegance to it..

And I would not mind having those gorgeous bottles all around my apartment..

wouldn't you?

these designs captured my eye while I was looking for some creative gifts for a friends birthday..
the bottles are amazing.. but you know what my favorite is? the cork candles?
amazing idea! I am going to order a bunch ASAP..

nature!Istanbul

I am really sorry to have to share these disgusting photos with you! However I couldn't just say nothing! Mom and I, took a walk last weekend.. and while we were walking, we realized the disgusting scene next to us.. 

This is what happens when you have a city that has an amazing sea, and people use it for touristic purposes.. and once boats travel all day, from one way to another, and serve foods, what they do with the extra, the left overs? Throw them away!

I don't know what I can do about this.. I am not sure who will want to deal with this - how can we make it right? 

I am back!!!

After spending 11 days in Washington DC, with "my baby", friends and family, I must say, I am more than happy..
I had an amazing time! Graduation was incredible.. one of my best friends graduated too, so it got even better... and all of our friends - most of them- stayed to celebrate with us.. It just was incredible..

so get ready.. the next few posts are going to be about DC and graduation..

How have you been since I was away?

By the way - I thought about my blog all the time, however it just was never the right time to write something.. I just did not have the time!

Sneak Peak:

you've gotta wait for the rest.. will be here soon :)

all my bags are packed, I'm ready to go

I have been singing this song constantly today, due to the fact that I am leaving tomorrow morning.. for DC.. I am more then excited.. I just packed.. I still am not done.. I am sitting in a pile of socks and make-up and tech gadgets.. So once you realize the 3 piles I told you are completely irrelevant to one another, you might understand why it is taking me so long to finish.. 

Cause I'm leaving on a jet plane..

What have I packed? Everything!!!!

I do not care.. A girl graduates only once..

and I am going to see my friends, and of course "my baby".. 

So I just can't decide what I am going to be wearing the next 10 days.. 

so I got everything.. 

Thinking the weather would be nice (hopefully - for a change after the rain in Istanbul), I packed lots of dresses.. all flowery summer dresses, tiny, mini dresses, and short, and t-shirts.. and no coats! 

I do not want to wear a coat on May - I am protesting Global Warming in some way!

Ladies and Gentelman.. 

due to the fact that I will be in DC and with friends and "my baby", 

I might not be, and I believe that I will not be the best blogger for a while.. 

I will try to do my best.. but please do not hold your breath until I come back.. 

Until next time.. take care.. 

and if you are in DC let me know.. 

missing those in DC

i miss you all!!

almost 5

It is almost 5 am in Istanbul and I just had the chance to get into my bed.. my flight landed something past 3, and coming home, taking a shower took so long.. that I am writing now, on here, because I feel like I might pass out any minute now..

Lisbon was quite the fun! As I told you before I went for business purposes and stayed a couple days. I met some incredible people! such a fun crowd, that welcomed me.. I was first a little anxious because I knew no one, however things turned out to be great and I believe I made friends rather than colleagues.

I want to share photos with you but you are going to have to wait.. I am too tired to get my camera and upload anything!

so, take care!! xoxo

I am the luckiest person alive / cok sansli olsam gerek

Yesterday was one of the best days in my life. "my baby" came to Istanbul.. he will be staying for 10 days - I think.. So what happened yesterday.. just a summary:

I was at work.. working.. trying to focus on the project that I am working on..trying to get my mind off of the fact that "my baby" is on a plane coming to Istanbul for spring break.. as I am pushing myself, my dearest boss* calls me in and gives me the new Samsung Windows 7 phone.. Even though I am not much a touch screen person, I actually am getting used to this phone.. the design is quite nice, easy to use and functional.. the perfect phone for business purposes..

Once it was time to leave, I got home and waited for "my baby".. but he didn't come.. he had to be with his family - they missed him too.. so.. hande called me and told me we were going out.. I said fine! We walked into this new restaurant, and what do I see, friends... yeap - It was a surprise birthday dinner..!
I constantly looked around for "my baby" but didn't see him.. and realized that he wasn't coming..
we had couple of drinks then ordered our food.. I was down that he wasn't going to be with me but I had to get used to it.. nothing I can or he can do to change the facts - I thought..
But suddenly, the lights went off and the birthday song started to play.. I saw him from across the mirror.. carrying a birthday cake in his hand.. walking towards me.. my jaw dropped! I stood still for a minute or so not able to move due to shock.. I couldn't believe it.. he was here. he had came!

At last "my baby" was with me! I could hug him, kiss him, hold his hand!

Welcome home askim! 

thank you everyone who joined us yesterday! and Hande for the amazing organization! 

Dun inanilmaz bir gundu benim icin.. Inanilmaz yogun bir is gunumun arasinda, durmadan bebegimin ne zaman incegini dusunuyordum.. konsantre olmaya calisiyorum ise guce, hemde oyle bir yogunluk olamaz.. ama aklim daha yogundu malesef.. sonra patronum* beni odasina cagirdi.. bir telefon hediye etti.. Windows 7 phone.. verilebilincek en guzel hediyelerden biriydi benim icin.. cnim patronum*! 

Is bitti, guc bitmedi.. eve dondum.. bekliyorum ki bebegimle bulusalim da hasret giderelim diye.. ama malesef olmadi.. yeni geldigi icin ailesi onla vakit gecirmek istediler.. ee haklilar! onlarda ozluyorlar onu.. yollarini gozluyorlar.. o yuzden boynumu egdim onume kabul ettim.. sonra handeyle yaptigimiz programimiz vardi.. bulusup yemek yicektik.. o programa gecis yaptim bende.. hande aldi beni gittik.. su bebekte Chilai var ya oraya gittik.. bir baktim ki icerde ne goreyim.. tanidik yuzler, bir masaya toplanmis bekliyorlar.. ay dedim - suprizzzz! 

sarilip opusmeler.. tesekkur etmeler.. o kadar sevinmistim ki.. bir yandan da bakiniyorum "bebegim" nerde diye.. ama cikmadi ortaliga.. uzuldum, boynum hafif gene bukuldu.. sonra da kabullendim artik gelmeyecegini.. 

birkac ickiden sonra yemek siparisi verelim artik dedik.. bu arada - istanbul'da ictigim en guzel long island icetea yi orda ictim dun! sushilerimizi soyledik.. bekliyoruz.. bir anda isiklar kisildi, happy birthday diye sarki calmaya basladi.. karsimda duran aynadan, arkama baktim.. gozlerini gordum mumlarin isiginda.. yavasca bana dogru geliyor.. gercekten geliyor! geldi! 

sonunda bebegim yanimdaydi! elini tutabiliyorum, kokusunu icime cekebiliyordum! 

Hosgeldin bebegim! 

ve dun bizle olan herkese! Hande - cok tesekkurler dum! 

I am missing you more than anything

I cannot believe it is MARCH already... It has been a month since I came back to Istanbul, moved away from "my baby", my friends and DC itself.. I am missing my old life everyday.. the sadness that I lived seems so irrelevant and small now, the pain I thought I was feeling seems meaningless..

Life is all about experiences, everything we live, there is a reason for it.. the pain we go thru is for us to learn something.. the happiness is to enjoy the day and look for another day to come.. the tears that drown us are just another way of passing time.. so that we can come to today.. we can be who we are TODAY..

I am missing every scent, every sound, every touch that I felt when I was with you.. I am missing facial expressions, the laughs, the anger, the cries, everything.. because they belonged to you and me.. and they do belong to you and me.. I just miss them..

even though I remind myself of us constantly, it feels different to be away, to have miles and miles between us.. but I know that those miles and those time differences mean S**t when it comes to you and me..

I just wanted to say .. I am missing you more than anything..

back at home, for the last time

For years I called this 1 bedroom apartment my home.. 

For years I knew this city as my home town, as a familiar place, I claimed to know the best places in town, and all the other joys.. 

Washington, DC was home for me for these past almost 5 years.. 

but in 2 weeks I have to say goodbye to home and go back to Istanbul to start a new life, a new plan, a whole new different stage of my lifetime. 

First I was a baby, then a student and now I will become a working grown up..

I wish I could have started my career in DC (at home), close to those who I keep closest to my heart..

but when life gives you an opportunity, you have to take it or else I just might have made the biggest mistake in my life. 

I know it is not going to be easy, it is not going to be al pleasant and fun.. but instead it is going to be educating, tiring, frustrating yet satisfying.. (I hope)..

"my baby" and I are going to have to work hard at somethings, make sacrifices, be understanding, listen, talk and communicate better, show affection in ways that might be new to us, maybe even learn how to write a letter and send it from the post office for the first time.. 

Special days, like a birthday or Valentine's day might be celebrated over Skype, or a package sent to an address.. or just one rose that has been dried for a few moths and a memory from the past.. 

For the last time I am at home.. and I only have 15 days to pack, store and ship everything.. everything that I have saved in this 1 bedroom apartment, all my memories with friends and my sweet "my baby".. has to be bubble wrapped and stored in a climate controlled box..how un-romantic is this?

I have blabbed more than I should.. 

last point: 

we are back in DC... 

another last night affair

yet another Last Night in Istanbul, yet another Last Night to spend with parents for a while.. 

yet another Last Night affair.. 

however, things are different now..

I am not packing like crazy, putting everything I will miss in my luggage.. 

Instead I am putting small luggages into bigger ones, using space and just taking 2 skinny jeans and maybe a sweater.. yes, that is it!

how come? 

I believe more of you know that I am moving back to Istanbul than any of my friends' do. 

none of them do except for Ali and a couple of girl friends and ofcourse "my baby" and our friends.. 

but from DC: none!

I feel really weird.. I feel not as myself today.. because I don't have that feeling I usually have when I go to the states.. 

I am not anxious.. I am not rushing from one room to another.. I am just plain.. 

Plain doing nothing.. and writing a post.. 

I look at my saying goodbye post from last August.. a post about yet another last night in Istanbul.. 

things are different.. I believe you can feel the difference even in my words.. 

memorize me

we all need some USB drives.. 

either for work, for school or for personal issues.. 

I know I have many somewhere in my apartment, hiding in the drawers.. 

I was never good at keeping them organized or even close to me..

so I found these 2 USB's that I believe are incredibly gorgeous, fun and useful

Memoring

LaCie

a USB that looks like a house key? 

who would have thought.. 

now we won't lose our memories.. 

personally my favorite is the Memoring.. 

i love the way it looks and the colors.. 

which one do you like? 

new year resolutions..

as hours left to starting a new year.. 2011.. I have to make some new year resolutions like everyone else..

I am going thru some changes in my life..

some possible space and time differences are going to be in my life..

(a change of city, continent to even make it more obvious to you)

I might not be in the states after February and may move back to Istanbul due to my recent graduation and the need of work..

so my new years resolutions are guided by my mixed feelings and confused mind.. so please bare with me.. 

1. Happiness

I want the happiness I felt all year and more if possible around me and my loved ones..

I want to be able to smile everyday, laugh and enjoy life..

and never forget that:

2.Love

I want to continue to be in love, stay in love and have ''my baby'' be in love with me too..

I wish to see more couples around, more love in the air..

I want to make myself and him happy..

3. Weight/Health

My recent gain weght is causing me problems.. I do not feel healthy.. I just feel heavy..

I want to loose all the weight that I have gained.. and be more fit and healthy than ever..

4. Success

either with my possible new job or somethişng else, I want to be successful.. I want to make myself proud.. I want to make my parents proud..
I believe this is going to be my life with an extra ''my baby'' thoughts in it..

5.Seeking Happiness

I want to inspired and continue to be inspired of my fellow bloggers..

I wish I could reach more followers and have more comments on this blog..

I wish to find my own voice and never be afraid to use it!

6.Flowers

I want to have flowers in my room everyday.. I want to smell the freshness, the life out of them..

I want to feel like butterflies

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERY ONE!

I HOPE WE ALL HAVE A MORE PEACEFUL YEAR, FILLED WITH LOVE, JOY AND LAUGHTER..

update on life and bla bla

days left to new years, and we don't have anything programmed/scheduled to do.

i do not have a dress, or an idea for a dress..

my recent weight gain is actually making me hate anything I wear or even before I wear them

i am not even in the mood to try anything.. 

i am still jet-lagged.. its been days but I just can't get used to it.. 

i went to sleep around 2:30am  and woke up around 6:00am.. not a nice way to start a day..

I really do feel tired.. 

however I will meet with my girlfriends tonight; if I can make it with all the sleep I got.. 

and then see my love "my baby"..

(i haven't seen him for days, which feels weird)

I am all over the place, huh? 

yes, I am.. 

..

well to end this post.. I wanted to share this image I found at weheartit.. 

Love it!

isn't this creative? 

hope everyone is having a good time..