motivation

I went to a 2 day training with fellow colleagues.. it was plain amazing.. before going no matter how much I tried not to be, I was still cynical about it. Not knowing what to expect got thousands of questions in my mind..

yet.. believe me, those 2 days- as I said- were amazing.. I learned so much new stuff about myself, and about others.. I learned of new ways to know people – a certain way that you usually don’t think much about..

One of the highlights of the event was about “getting out of your comfort zone” and getting into what we call the “growth and learning zone”.. trying to move ahead and not stay in the same place more than a while..

another highlight was about Energy and Attitude.. Positive and Negative Attitude, High and Low Energy.. which of the 2 classifications would you see yourself in?

do you have a positive attitude and a high energy? or you do have a negative attitude and a high energy? or you are negative and have low energy? etc etc.. you get my drift right?

So about this whole attitude and energy thing – I tried to find a place for myself.. and got to question myself even further.. I do have high energy and positive attitude most of the time.. but as life goes, one is never always that happy (not sure if happy is the right word but still).. there are days when I do not have the energy to move a finger yet I have this amazingly pink view of the world. But when I asked others, they said I usually am this positive attitude and high energy person, with a smile on her face no matter what.. which made my day.. I appreciated the fact that other people see me as such.. what a relief!

If you do have the chance to attend such seminars, events, motivational activities about teambuilding, or knowing yourself.. do attend them! keep an open mind about what might you hear, and what might be coming your way.. because what is being delivered to you is not something you are not aware of, but something that is useful to hear from someone else to settle in your mind…

I hope you have an amazing Thursday as I plan mine to be one.. as much as any other day..

May happiness be with you..

i have a friend

a dear friend to me.. I met him not a long time ago.. but not so soon either.. he was with me every day when I went through the tough phase this summer.. that's when we grew closer..

I always think I have figured him out..and I do believe that I have.. I know his habits, I know when he is down, when something pissed him.. or what's so ever.. but then.. I remember how hard he tries to block his feelings around people.. how much stuff he has in his head, that he thinks about.. may it be his job, women coming and going in his life.. or just a comment he got from someone..

I try talking to him.. and you know what - he does open up to me.. I think he likes that I listen to him.. and pay attention.. he gets so excited when he tells me a story from his past, or just something that happened 2 minutes ago.. i love that he has this childish excitement in him..
I also like that he has that childish look in his eyes, when he gets excited.. but those eyes.. also are mirrors to his inner dwellings..
I sometimes wonder what else does he have in that brain of his? how tired is his sole? what is he fighting against?
He is usually in a chillaxxx mode, however in a second he becomes this other person that is totally the opposite than his previous version..

so anyways.. I don't know why I am writing about him right now..but I just thought about him.. and realized we haven't talked in a while..

I should catch him in the office tomorrow and buy him a coffee..

NewYears make-up inspiration

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been away

I have been away for too long from "seeking happiness".. this is one of the places that I used to hide from all the rush in my life, from all the consumption and all the feelings that get me down.. a diary, a place to share, a place to just write.. and be happy.. but for so long, I just have been writing about being away from it and then continuing to stay away.. from now on this should change.. I really have to become more active with "seeking happiness" and use it as my own safe place again..

what has changed in my life - since when - since, I don't know when..
but...

"my baby" is back in Istanbul for Christmas and New Years... He graduated from college - A huge CONGRATULATIONS to him!!! Celebrations, celebrations! ~I need to go to DC in May for his graduation - need some off time :)

work - is good, I am getting used to my new role and each day I feel like I am learning more, but then when I question myself I just get down and wonder if I will be able to make it.. but then again, I always find a spark inside of me to get me going..

I cannot think of much to write at this moment.. but there are many posts to follow this one..

and before I end this post and start collaging the other, Happy New Year to everyone.. we are getting closer to the end of 2011 and closer to a bright new beginning... 2012..

hectic but exciting

these past weeks have been hectic.. not bad but hectic in some sense…

I have a lot to share – I kept myself from writing much, but will talk now..

I went through a role change in our company.. these are really exciting times for me.. I am energized and I am looking forward to what ever is to come my way.. I know there are tons of challenges that I need to overcome, however instead of these challenges bothering me – I am letting them energize and motivate me.. (one has to find new ways to motivate themselves to survive in such an unstable world)..

each day I am learning more and more about myself and the company I work for.. I am learning more about people, from those who work around me, from those I interact with and those whom I only watch from far far away…

Last week, Monday was my start date in my new role.. so that’s workwise blabbing..

the week before, we had Eid here in Turkey, so I packed my bags and went to the States to see “my baby”, my parents tagged along.. it was such an amazing time.. I hated that I had only a week to be with him but still, time is precious and time spent with him is priceless..

and you know what, when I left to come back home, I counted the days till the next time I would see him, it was only 5 weeks.. not bad I thought to myself..

last week Friday, he popped out of no where – he came to Turkey, for thanksgiving and surprised me! I have such an amazing boyfriend! I love him, just the way he is.. I do I do.. I do love him..

so life wise.. what else.. not much actually.. I am consumed by love and work.. which is fine for me, just the way I imagined my life when I was 10 years old – I guess..

I realized one thing about myself, which I really liked.. no matter what might come my way, I realized that I look forward to the next day.. or the next hectic day that might come.. because you do not grow out of ‘just’ happiness.. you need that hectic-city to let you grow and mature away.. true? so true!

HAVE A HECTIC but EXCITING DAY, week, month, life …